I knew we were going to get snow today when I could barely move yesterday. I hurt everywhere, and I didn’t really wake up until 8 o’clock in the evening. I drank two cups of coffee in the morning and took a three hour nap in the afternoon. I read, meditated and wrote in my journal. I finally managed to wash my face and brush my teeth around 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I showered around 7:30 pm. My family had a Birthday dinner at Red Lobster, followed by a shopping trip. I missed out on both. I spent my evening watching Pitch Perfect with my cat. I ate instant oatmeal for dinner because that was the easiest thing to make. Missing out on family activities makes me sad. Although the movie made me laugh a little, I was feeling depressed anyway. I tried painting my nails to cheer myself up but that didn’t work. I went to bed around 11 pm but my three year old took a late nap so she had me up several times in the middle of the night.
Despite my inactivity the previous day, I knew I needed to put that day behind me. Unfortunately, I often forget that just because yesterday was a bust doesn’t mean I need to catch up on everything I didn’t do yesterday, today. When the snow started around 11 am, I started on dishes. I had to empty the dishwasher first, then scrape left-over’s into the trash and warm the pan with bacon grease in it. Mid-pour of hot bacon grease into the used oil jar, I realized that bacon grease was running along the bottom of the pan, down into the crack between the stove and the cupboards and onto the floor. I cleaned up that mess and loaded the dishwasher. I washed my face and brushed my teeth and then swept the kitchen floor. Anyone with kids knows that there is more to sweeping the floor than just sweeping. First, you have to pick up any toys, towels, napkins (I made cloth napkins to save money on paper towels), shoes, clothes, pencils, hair ties and any other crap my kids have dropped by the front door, back door and under the kitchen table. Then, if you aren’t dead tired with muscles cramping, you can actually get to the sweeping. I am going to leave the mopping to either my MINT automatic floor cleaner or my nine year old daughter.
Now I’m blogging because I need a break and with the help of the Kindle Fire’s auto-complete and the book chair I found at Goodwill, I can post with less pain. Less pain, not pain-free. I still get pain in my neck, shoulders, wrists and fingers. I am really stressed out because I am in the process of applying for Social Security and they want me to go to one of their doctors. The appointment is on my Birthday, May 4th, at nine o’clock in the morning. I have around two weeks to obsess and stress over it. I don’t want to do that but I don’t know how not to. I really wish I could talk to my therapist about it but with money tight I don’t want to spend the money. So I’m talking to you all. Thanks for listening.