Today, I had to ask myself, “What do I need to accomplish today, in order to be able to love myself?” I couldn’t go to my daughter’s helper day and that left me feeling similar to the way I felt when I had to stop working. If I can’t do that, I shouldn’t do anything. I walked through my house, noticing everything that had to be done, that I would not be getting to today. Then, I noticed my toothbrush, all ready to go, from yesterday. I had put toothpaste on it, only to realize I had just brushed my teeth. I decided to leave it for later, then forgot about it again.
Brushing my teeth was step one. Step two, was opening the shades. Step three, was starting on the dishes that were overflowing the sink. I sat down, when I became to tired to stand and decided I would leave the pots for someone else. My arms and hands were weak and shaking when I was done, but I accomplished the one thing I had decided I could handle today. I didn’t even realize that I had begun with the idea that I’d be happy with myself today, if I accomplished the dishes, until I was rinsing. I focused on sitting up straight and flexing my abdomen, which I’ve noticed help my back.
Afterward, I almost broke down again because I realized I was hungry and had no energy left to make lunch. It took three looks through the kitchen, but I finally remembered the leftover chicken enchiladas. I opened the front door and the backdoor, so I could listen to the birds sing. Next on the agenda, is picking up kids from school in 2 1/2 hours. I believe I’ll be resting until then.
The next time you are in a flare, ask yourself this question:
“What do I need to accomplish today, in order to be able to love myself?”
Be kind to yourself, be reasonable, and don’t overwhelm yourself. Choose a simple task that has been bugging you, and then be happy with your choice.