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Defcon Blue

on November 14, 2013

I’m feeling down.  Eeyore is my spirit animal right now.  My hubby brought me flowers yesterday.  I said, “Thank you”, but inside I was shrugging my shoulders.  I tried to refashion a t-shirt to give me happy vibes, but I shrugged my shoulders at that too.  Outside my window, there is a huge tree.  Behind it, a giant pine tree is leaning and it looks like it’s peeking at me.  Again, meh.

I didn’t even sing along to the radio this morning while taking my kids to school.  I am listening to electronica music because I know there won’t be any depressing songs in that mix.  My foot is bouncing to the beat, so at least that is working.  I slept a ton yesterday.  I was in bed at 6:30 pm last night.  I woke up at 9 pm to take my night time meds, ate something and went back to sleep.  Usually, it would be a good thing, all this sleeping.  I just didn’t feel like doing anything else.  I didn’t want to talk to anyone and that was the easiest way to avoid my kids and husband.

I don’t like me like this.  I was alone all day, barely talked on the phone and should’ve been ready for some time with my kids and hubby.  It has been so long since I’ve felt this way.  I don’t feel like crying, I just don’t feel anything.


3 responses to “Defcon Blue

  1. TTD says:

    I remember that feeling so well. Have you got yourself a lightbox yet? Using that every morning should help lift your mood. Be gentle with yourself honey. xXx

  2. Trisha says:

    I hate feeling like that. I hope these blues pass quickly for you.

  3. Julie says:

    I think we all have those days. I find that knowing this and then telling myself it’s ok, giving myself permission to have blah days helps a lot. One day every so often is perfectly ok. 3days in a row and I need to sound the battle alarms & force myself out of my bubble.

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