I’ve been keeping to myself lately. I haven’t posted on either of my blogs since January 31st. I’ve been trying to do things differently and weirdly, didn’t want to jinx myself if things went well. I’ve thought a lot about what I do when I have good days and how I can accomplish more on bad days.
I had my Social Security Disability hearing in February. It was at 9:30 in the morning, which means, I didn’t have a brain. For about two weeks, every time my mind wandered, that’s where it went. I had to start keeping myself busy with cleaning, reading, sewing and anything else that would occupy my mind and get it away from that black hole of worry and self-flagellation.
I haven’t yet heard anything, but I’m trying to stay positive. The big positive that came from the hearing so far, is that the occupational expert didn’t think I could work in a competitive work situation doing what I have experience in.
This Monday begins Spring Break for my kids. I’m fully prepared to do whatever is possible to remain sane. I’m really hoping for nice weather so I can just kick them outside. If I’m lucky, family members will take them off my hands from time to time. If they are lucky, I’ll sleep well, we’ll have good weather and I won’t kill them.
I’ve missed you all and it is good to be back.